Crappy Day

Hello my internet friends....Debbie Downer here! More of a vent than anything else......When I opened my eyeballs this morning, my day went to hell.
I got up and got ready for work.... my hair wouldn't fix, felt like crap, my clothes didn't dry, my kids wouldn't cooperate, and I was running late. I finally hurried everyone up and we were out the door by 6:10am. As I was going out the door my pups were laying on the front porch sound asleep. We got in the car which was 10 feet from the front porch and I put it in reverse. Well I hear a yelp....A LOUD YELP. I hit the favorite dog out of the 3 (whos suppose to be asleep on the front porch). I didn't run over him but I bumped him. I ran back to get my hubby to go check on the pup so I could go on. We were late without all of this.
I dropped the kids off at the bus stops and went on to work.
Needless to say, the dog has no broken bones but he has intestine damage and he's bleeding in his lungs. Hubby took him to the vet where they don't expect him to make it. I feel guilty, angry that I hurt the kids and hubby, and I feel stupid cause that dog was asleep before I walked that 10 feet to the car.
I stopped by the vet when I got off of work....I held the little guy, felt bad that I caused him to be suffering. He forgave me....he buried his head in my chest and kept wanting his ears scratched. Anyway, tomorrow I hope to know where we stand. If he makes it then he's going to be one spoiled little dog especially by me. I've never been that crazy about this dog yet I sent my family on a 8 hour drive to pick him up and sent some mega $$$ after finding him online.

Then the second phone call came in that my 19 yr old niece was rushed to the hospital with her heart. She has advanced stages of heart disease. Things aren't looking too great for her. Another blow to my crappy day. God I hope you give these doctors that knowledge to treat her and give her life. I've always been crazy about this girl! She was the little flower girl when I married my husband. I've watched her grow up since she was 4.

I'm personally not afraid of death but fearing death in others horrifies me. Once death occurs, you can never get back anything or make anything right again.
I struggle with this subject because we have jackasses who molest kids in prison and they'll live to be 90 yrs old. Only the good die young is a true saying.

Gotta have faith which is hard to have at times.

Here's to a better Thursday otherwise I'm going on a Margarita binge!