Still Chuggin' Along

I haven't been in a creative mood lately so nothing new to post. I've had a hard time with a few issues but I'm chuggin' right along with this wonderful thing called "life". I will get out of my rut and create something this week. Other than that, we're getting ready to go back to school which means, school supplies, clothes, fees, you know all of those wonderful things that happen right before school. We go to pick up my daughters high school schedule on Aug. 4......whew! Not going to be a fun day! This is the same high school that I went to for 3 years.....I know what it was when I went there and I'm not looking forward to it.
It was my 7-9 grade years at this school before I changed to my grandparents school zone.....

7th grade Happenings:
Got my first boyfriend, Darby
I really didn't fit in that first year....I was a loner and was very insecure & quite.

8th grade Happenings:
This was the year that I blossomed and stupid decisions became a regular for me.
I lost my daddy at the beginning of the school year
I began to be popular and got out of that ugly duckling stage
I had lots of boyfriends ....not serious though
I skipped school for the first time and it became a habit
I drank my first beer and didn't like it
Smoked my first cigarette
Started telling white lies to my family to go out
Was at a party that was filled with drugs and I said, "NO" (YAY ME)

9th grade Happenings:
Very popular this year
Met an older guy in college and dated him for the next few years (off and on) (stupid stupid stupid)
Continued to skip school
Contined to smoke cigarettes
Loved my friends more than studying
Started sneaking out to be with my friends.

Anyway, I really wasn't a bad kid....I was looking for something since my whole world just died when I lost my daddy.....didn't find it and made some really STUPID decisions in life. I don't look forward to go through this with my daughter but it's knocking on my door. I am scared to death as a parent of a beautiful girl who will make stupid decisions like her mother. I didn't listen to advice from my family and I know my daughter won't listen either.

I have never tried, done, or wanted to do any drugs.........I hope my daughter has the same courage that it takes to say NO. This is my biggest fear! I've tried to raise her right, teach her right from wrong. It's now time to let go of her hand and let her make some decisions.....they won't all be good decisions and this is where I will struggle.
So this is where I stand with my head in my hands. BOO HOO! Someone please tell me that this get easier!!!!

Thanks for reading my whining.....I'm struggling! LOL